What I am most regretful is that... I was just so worried and felt like I didn't know what I was doing while trying to calm Jack down, because nothing was working, my husband kept saying this is a wild animal, leave him alone... So, finally when I put him in his release cage around 11:00 pm, he was so tired, but still was not going into his nest box or even on a shelf or branch; he was hanging on the wires... I let him be for a while like that... And then he was so tired and weak, he couldn't hang anymore... starting to slip... That's when I put him in his nest box; because he was so nervous and edgy when I was holding him earlier, I thought if I put him in his nest box, he won't be agitated that I'm holding him, it will be dark and small, so he won't hurt himself and I was hoping that he'll get some sleep. I didn't think that this was going to the last time I see him alive.
At 3:00 am, when I checked on him, he was already gone. I should have kept holding him in my arms...
There are no words to describe this regret and I have to live with it for the rest of my life!
Jack Sorry, I couldn't save you. Please forgive me for all the mistakes I made.
Know that I love you with all my heart and I will always love you and you will always be in my heart!