Broken today

[JLM27]

I'm so sorry for your pain. I too live with this everyday. There arfe manyt here or who have passed through here who have this particular tatto on their heart. Snickers will never leave you. Keep her close in your heart of hearts. Your spirits are truly one now. One day we too must leave, and and I truly believe when that day comes we will sorrow that we can no longer touch the ones we love so much.

[Snicker Bar]

Thank you friends ; nobody could ever understand this anywhere else . Thank you for kind words , and for allowing me to let tears flow with likeminded people. Maybe sleep will be mercuful and be allowed by my minds to forget for a few hours

[Snicker Bar]

Friday’s breakfast leftovers still where she left them


Our cuddle spot

Oh how I miss you,
Still wrestling with anger. And guilt for punching the wall and cursing God in front of my children.

[Rexie]

my deepest condolences. no words i can speak will help you during your most difficult time of loss and sadness. Only us humans that have been gifted the precious life and love from a squirrel could ever begin to understand the bond and happiness, love, they bring into our lives. losing them is all of our worst fear and someday we all here will have to face the inevitable. cry, scream, yell, curse and be angry..you have that right because the pain is so deep. squirrels are angels . i hope in time your pain will be more bearable and you begin to heal. i am deeply saddened with you for your loss of snickers, Rexie and Wallys Mom

[Chickenlegs]

When my Punkin left her tired little body, it was alone. I found her on her back. It looked as if she was trying to get out of her bin. I mourned her leaving without loving arms holding her. I grieved that she might have been afraid or cold. Then I dreamed of my baby whole and strong. She was climbing because while her little old body was stopped by death, her spirit kept climbing towards the absolute. That was the night I wrote down Punkin’s prayer. May it help with your loss.

Thank you Lord, for you have given me a squirrel.
You have entrusted this wild thing to my care and we are bonded as family.
In the end there will be sorrow because squirrels are born perfect and don’t need to learn the lessons humans are so slow at before they are called home. Make me worthy of this creature who in spite all my faults, trusts me and loves me as only a wild one can. One day when I have to say goodbye to my beloved friend, my companion, my child—when my heart is torn with grief, please don’t let me forget to thank you Lord, for you have given me a squirrel.

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Thank you for kind words Rexie, I agree outside of TSB folks just think grief over a squirre is ridiculous..
And I am literally sitting here in a WM parking lot, getting myself composed after reading that poem. How beautiful and convicting; because as a believer I cursed instead of thanked Him. Thank you for sharing this; I’m doing a little better; staying busy with the fawns and the other squirrel girls ( and little man Flyer). Doodles and Dandies ( the remaining NR greys) have never been “House “ squirrels; they were and have remained tightly bonded to each other since the rehabber brought them together three years ago. I figured they would be happier in an outdoor habitat as close to natural as possible. And they are more “wild”; friendly but not cuddly. But if they would allow and enjoy some indoor time and affection, I would love to try and work with them if it’s not too late. Snickers was just so different, she needed me whereas these two are more aloof.
And dang if my little kennel girl /junior rehabber in training didn’t come in yesterday with four baby greys.... two males, two females. Rescues from a fallen tree , just like my Snickers . I almost wished ( in selfish way) couldn’t one just be a bit neuro? A broken jaw, malocclusion, something to deem one NR?? Just longing to nurture a baby again, that could stay guilt free. I could easily trade duties ( she would LOVE to take over the fawns) but I know I would struggle, would want to keep a little girl... But I know that’s Illegal, and selfish . These are healthy as best she can tell. But maybe someday another will come, that is in need of a home vs euthanasia.

[Mel1959]

I am certain another needie squirrel will come along because you have an open heart and have expressed your desire to help one. Squirrel Magic!

[bre]

I'm new here and didn't get to "meet" your baby Snickers. Just wanted to say that my heart & tears go out to you.
You were there for her when she needed you most - you gave her love, comfort, food and a warm home when she would not of otherwise had them. Animals, of all types, (and even a lot of humans) seem to (want) to pass away by themselves. I've heard numerous stories about this and people grieving (more so) that they were not with them to say goodbye. I firmly believe they do this because it would (imo) be even harder to witness them passing. You would've felt helpless not being able to help her. I'm sure you gave her snuggles & kisses not long before she crossed the Rainbow Bridge.. to her maybe that was when she said goodbye or see ya on the other side.
I suck at grieving but I do truly believe that animals/people come into our lives or are sent to us at a certain time to teach us something. Once we have learned what they were sent to teach us.. they leave. We may not feel as though our time with them was long enough (how can it ever be when you love something/someone with all your heart?) to have learned anything in their time with us but one day you'll be able to look back and not feel so much pain and maybe realize what she taught you (sometimes it's a subconscious lesson that we can't pinpoint).
I hope this makes sense.. it's hard to explain and I hope you find some comfort today, tomorrow and for the rest of your days.

[Snicker Bar]

I just wanted to say thanks to my extended family here, and share a pic of little “Sleepy” who made an appearance here this morning on Day 3 of freedom. Ironically, right about the time period she left two years ago, I was out here just before dark and all three appeared : My two new releases that I’ve been fretting over, and my earlier release “Toot” who’s been MIA for last several days. It’s as if she whispered to all three to come out and give me a sign everyone is Ok.

Bre, you may be new but your post is so appreciated. It opened my eyes to a different way to look at her passing. It does make sense; had I been there at that very moment ( her seizures finally took her ) I would not have been able to fix it. I always held her as they happened , and she always came back around . But I knew there would come a day this might be her last; the big one. That would have been so difficult to witness and endure ; in fact more than you could know , considering another sudden loss I did have to witness years ago, and was totally helpless to do anything to save the life. Thank you for sharing this point of view . It does bring a peace and lightens the guilt .

[bre]

I just wanted to say thanks to my extended family here, and share a pic of little “Sleepy” who made an appearance here this morning on Day 3 of freedom. Ironically, right about the time period she left two years ago, I was out here just before dark and all three appeared : My two new releases that I’ve been fretting over, and my earlier release “Toot” who’s been MIA for last several days. It’s as if she whispered to all three to come out and give me a sign everyone is Ok.

Bre, you may be new but your post is so appreciated. It opened my eyes to a different way to look at her passing. It does make sense; had I been there at that very moment ( her seizures finally took her ) I would not have been able to fix it. I always held her as they happened , and she always came back around . But I knew there would come a day this might be her last; the big one. That would have been so difficult to witness and endure ; in fact more than you could know , considering another sudden loss I did have to witness years ago, and was totally helpless to do anything to save the life. Thank you for sharing this point of view . It does bring a peace and lightens the guilt .

I do think she sent them to you as a sign and to also lighten your stress. Glad they made their appearance and that you see it that way too. She is watching out for you as you did for her when she needed you to
You're welcome. I'm glad I was able to help.. even if it was just a little bit. I'm too familiar with loss & grief/trauma. I do *try* to keep that outlook on it.. unfortunately it's easier said then done some days.
I feel like I know you guys a little.. I've been lurking and reading a ton of posts in between feeding, caring for the little one that was brought to me about 2 weeks ago & trying to take mini naps to catch-up on sleep . I named her Hope since she came to me at a time that I feel I can really use some I'll introduce us soon.. the nut ball just opened her eyes on Sunday.. such a joy

[Diggie's Friend]

Though all loss takes time to emotionally process, feelings of sadness upon recalling our loss may persist for a lifetime.

Yet, there is no reason for, 'guilt' as to second guess our actions when the matter was out of our control, for we aren't gods.

[Diggie's Friend]

God loves you, be at peace.


"but just as it is written, "THINGS WHICH EYE HAS NOT SEEN AND EAR HAS NOT HEARD, AND which HAVE NOT ENTERED THE HEART OF MAN, ALL THAT GOD HAS PREPARED FOR THOSE WHO LOVE HIM."

[Snicker Bar]

It’s that day again; that time of day I last saw you before a brief trip to town. You were fine; and then, you were gone. It still hurts; I still remember the shock and disbelief. The guilt of not being there to hold you. The anger that Creator took you so soon.

But now, I try to look at the good things that have happened since that awful night. I look at the legacy you’ve left behind, and continue to lead this way. A group of broken babies that have defied their disabilities and have proven life can still be fun and fulfilling. They have helped me heal , but they can never replace you. You will always hold that special spot in my heart , the one that started it all. I cannot thank you enough for finding me, and leading me on this journey and season of life with your amazing kind. I love all my animals, large and small. But the bond you shared with me was unlike any I’ve known with the other domestics. You gave me your trust in spite of your natural instincts . And I gave you my heart. Thank you Snicker Doodle Dandies; so do all the others you’ve led to me. As I said before, this is not a forever goodbye. I will see you again on the other side with all the others who have crossed over.

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