Suffering yet another loss

[Charley]

This is Liz I was Charlottes mom of 9 years u til 7/26/22 when she passed away suddenly. I still am unable to look at her videos without breaking into pieces she was my world I raised her from a newborn. Well on April 26 my friend came to me that she had found a baby gtound squirrel in the middle of the road approximately 4 weeks old of course I took her immediately. Well last week she was fully weaned just the happiest baby in the world so I decided to leave her in my room with her cage open I also had a camera and I saw her twice the. Did t see her again. By the time I got home my bf was home sitting on the rocking chair with her. He was devastated he said to me, babe I'm sorry I tried rubbing her chect and giving her cpr but it was too late. It was pure agony for me all over again. Apparently she chewed on a cord and I assume got electrocuted. I am so heartbroken I haven't let her out of my arms since yesterday. I keep blaming myself for not taking her to work with me like I had been. She was so adorable, playful and a great personality. I'm deveatated reliving the quilt and the blame all over again. My poor Bella!!

[SamtheSquirrel2018]

This is Liz I was Charlottes mom of 9 years u til 7/26/22 when she passed away suddenly. I still am unable to look at her videos without breaking into pieces she was my world I raised her from a newborn. Well on April 26 my friend came to me that she had found a baby gtound squirrel in the middle of the road approximately 4 weeks old of course I took her immediately. Well last week she was fully weaned just the happiest baby in the world so I decided to leave her in my room with her cage open I also had a camera and I saw her twice the. Did t see her again. By the time I got home my bf was home sitting on the rocking chair with her. He was devastated he said to me, babe I'm sorry I tried rubbing her chect and giving her cpr but it was too late. It was pure agony for me all over again. Apparently she chewed on a cord and I assume got electrocuted. I am so heartbroken I haven't let her out of my arms since yesterday. I keep blaming myself for not taking her to work with me like I had been. She was so adorable, playful and a great personality. I'm deveatated reliving the quilt and the blame all over again. My poor Bella!!

Hi Liz:
I'm so sorry for your loss of little Bella! You were only doing what you thought would be a good experience for Bella to be out of her cage. You were new to this and I'm certain your only thoughts when you left Bella with some new freedom was for her happiness and enjoyment of this. Many have learned of the risks that go with being out in a room of the house in a similar and very hard way! You can't go back but please know that Bella passed instantaneously without pain and her last thoughts were certainly of the love you had for her and her love and appreciation for you! She did not suffer! In the wild, virtually all passings are without mercy and accompanied by fear and suffering. Bella passed knowing only your love! Please be easy on yourself if at all possible! I do wish you peace! Hopefully, you will have the experience once again to love and be loved by a Squirrel! You know now that there are risks of being let out of the cage and there are posts here on TSB where some of these are listed. Please don't focus on what might have been or beat yourself up wishing the clock could be turned back. We have heard many similar and sad posts from others and all I can say is I'm so very sorry! You just did not know, Liz! I hope, without too much more suffering on your part; that you will be able to release yourself from guilt! You have learned a very hard and sad lesson as have others who like you, just did not know and only wanted their Squirrel to be happy! I hope that if the opportunity presents itself again; that you will welcome another Squirrel into your life! We can help you with any care issues you might have and with recognizing certain risks!
RIP Little Bella!
I wish peace for you, Liz! Again, I am so sorry about this incident and for your loss of Bella!
Regards,
SamtheSquirrel

[Charley]

Hi Liz:
I'm so sorry for your loss of little Bella! You were only doing what you thought would be a good experience for Bella to be out of her cage. You were new to this and I'm certain your only thoughts when you left Bella with some new freedom was for her happiness and enjoyment of this. Many have learned of the risks that go with being out in a room of the house in a similar and very hard way! You can't go back but please know that Bella passed instantaneously without pain and her last thoughts were certainly of the love you had for her and her love and appreciation for you! She did not suffer! In the wild, virtually all passings are without mercy and accompanied by fear and suffering. Bella passed knowing only your love! Please be easy on yourself if at all possible! I do wish you peace! Hopefully, you will have the experience once again to love and be loved by a Squirrel! You know now that there are risks of being let out of the cage and there are posts here on TSB where some of these are listed. Please don't focus on what might have been or beat yourself up wishing the clock could be turned back. We have heard many similar and sad posts from others and all I can say is I'm so very sorry! You just did not know, Liz! I hope, without too much more suffering on your part; that you will be able to release yourself from guilt! You have learned a very hard and sad lesson as have others who like you, just did not know and only wanted their Squirrel to be happy! I hope that if the opportunity presents itself again; that you will welcome another Squirrel into your life! We can help you with any care issues you might have and with recognizing certain risks!
RIP Little Bella!
I wish peace for you, Liz! Again, I am so sorry about this incident and for your loss of Bella!
Regards,
SamtheSquirrel

I am still grieving Bella so much! I feel that all I do is just go through the motions everyday. I hate to even come home from work to an empty room. I cry all the time because I miss her so much and because I blame myself.
I have a question I thought my Bella had gotten electrocuted but the other day I connected the cord that she chewed on and I touched the wires and everything and it didn't do anything to me, so what I'm thinking is could there have been a chance that Bella ate a little piece of wire, and it punctured something inside of her which caused her to get internal bleeding? If that is a possibility has anyone experienced their squirrel passing from internal bleeding is it something that happens quickly or is it a long process?

[SamtheSquirrel2018]

I am still grieving Bella so much! I feel that all I do is just go through the motions everyday. I hate to even come home from work to an empty room. I cry all the time because I miss her so much and because I blame myself.
I have a question I thought my Bella had gotten electrocuted but the other day I connected the cord that she chewed on and I touched the wires and everything and it didn't do anything to me, so what I'm thinking is could there have been a chance that Bella ate a little piece of wire, and it punctured something inside of her which caused her to get internal bleeding? If that is a possibility has anyone experienced their squirrel passing from internal bleeding is it something that happens quickly or is it a long process?

Hi Charley: I'm so sorry that you are suffering so much! Was the cord plugged in when you found Bella? If the circuit was active, the cord was plugged in, and you observed exposed wires; most likely your original premise is correct and that is that Bella was electrocuted. To comment upon your question about the risks of internal bleeding and dying from what would need to be immediate massive blood loss after swallowing a few tiny strands of wire that "punctured something" is extremely remote!

A major concern I have currently is you having "tested" your premise of electrocution by touch the exposed wires of an electrical circuit yourself to see if anything happened! This is extremely risky for you! Also, the circuit breaker (and/or the circuit interrupter of the outlet itself if it is a GFCI type outlet) may have "tripped" when the cord was chewed and you can check that. If the circuit breaker has been tripped; my suggestion would be to NOT reset the circuit breaker until after the plug has been removed from the outlet! If you know which circuit breaker controls the outlet with the damaged cord, turn off the breaker before the cord is unplugged and no matter what have someone who is familiar with household electrical components and systems unplug the cord. Exposed wires in active circuit is a fire hazard and and poses a risk for shock or electrocution even though you were fortunate to have not been injured when you "tested" the wires!

Again, I am so very sorry for your loss of Bella! Please don't put yourself at any more risk by further "testing" the suspect electrical components!
Regards,
SamtheSquirrel

[Charley]

Thank you for your prompt response. Yes the cord was plugged in but she only chewed the wires on one side of the cord so they never touched to cause electrocution. But no matter how much I try to figure this out it's not going to bring her back. I regret so much not taking her with me to work that day.
Thank you

[Charley Chuckles]

❤️❤️❤️

[SamtheSquirrel2018]

Thank you for your prompt response. Yes the cord was plugged in but she only chewed the wires on one side of the cord so they never touched to cause electrocution. But no matter how much I try to figure this out it's not going to bring her back. I regret so much not taking her with me to work that day.
Thank you

Hi Charley:
The means for getting shocked or electrocuted are not really the issue right now but just for the record; it doesn't require exposure of both wires, it requires only that the victim become part of the circuit in some way and electricity is conducted through the victim.

I'm extremely sorry for your loss of Bella and I am also sorry for the guilt you are carrying! We can't possibly consider all possibilities and really, Charley, you were only thinking about making you little Squirrel happy! I wish things had been different also but now; I so wish you Peace, Charley and I know it will come!
Regards,
SamtheSquirrel

[Charley]

Hi Charley:
The means for getting shocked or electrocuted are not really the issue right now but just for the record; it doesn't require exposure of both wires, it requires only that the victim become part of the circuit in some way and electricity is conducted through the victim.

I'm extremely sorry for your loss of Bella and I am also sorry for the guilt you are carrying! We can't possibly consider all possibilities and really, Charley, you were only thinking about making you little Squirrel happy! I wish things had been different also but now; I so wish you Peace, Charley and I know it will come!
Regards,
SamtheSquirrel

Thank you so much for your response and your kind words. I would love to post a picture of Bella from my I phone, but don't know how. Maybe you can help.

[SamtheSquirrel2018]

Thank you so much for your response and your kind words. I would love to post a picture of Bella from my I phone, but don't know how. Maybe you can help.

Hi Charley:
We would love to see photos of Bella!

Here is how you do it. It is not as difficult as these instructions make it seem. I just wanted to list all of the steps for you. Again, I am so very sorry for your loss of Bella and I wish the very best for you, Charley!

1) on the new message (new post) page (clicking on the Reply to Thread or Reply with Quote buttons will bring up a new page with a blank area to start your post) there is a button with a paperclip icon on it toward the right side of the top row of the three rows of buttons used to edit your post.
Click on that.
2) You will then have a pop-up with a button toward the right upper corner that says; "Add Files."
Click on that
3) A small pop-up will then show up near there that says, "Choose File."
Click on that.
4) You will then have a File Explorer window and within this, you then choose the file(s) you would like to upload by clicking on it. These files can certainly be photos of Bella!
5) Click on the Upload button and that file will be uploaded into the top section of the upload window.
6) The uploading can continue until all the files you would like to upload are uploaded.
7) the click the left mouse button and hold it down while the cursor is over one of the files you would like to put in your post drag this file into the lower part of the window and lift your finger to release the left mouse button and leave the file where you dragged it. You do the same with any other files you would like to put in your post.
8) next you should look at the files you have placed in the lower half of the download window to ensure that your are not uploading something you did not want to upload and when you are satisfied in that respect; click on the Insert Inline button and those files will be in your post!


Regards,
SamtheSquirrel

[Charley]

Hi Charley:
We would love to see photos of Bella!

Here is how you do it. It is not as difficult as these instructions make it seem. I just wanted to list all of the steps for you. Again, I am so very sorry for your loss of Bella and I wish the very best for you, Charley!

1) on the new message (new post) page (clicking on the Reply to Thread or Reply with Quote buttons will bring up a new page with a blank area to start your post) there is a button with a paperclip icon on it toward the right side of the top row of the three rows of buttons used to edit your post.
Click on that.
2) You will then have a pop-up with a button toward the right upper corner that says; "Add Files."
Click on that
3) A small pop-up will then show up near there that says, "Choose File."
Click on that.
4) You will then have a File Explorer window and within this, you then choose the file(s) you would like to upload by clicking on it. These files can certainly be photos of Bella!
5) Click on the Upload button and that file will be uploaded into the top section of the upload window.
6) The uploading can continue until all the files you would like to upload are uploaded.
7) the click the left mouse button and hold it down while the cursor is over one of the files you would like to put in your post drag this file into the lower part of the window and lift your finger to release the left mouse button and leave the file where you dragged it. You do the same with any other files you would like to put in your post.
8) next you should look at the files you have placed in the lower half of the download window to ensure that your are not uploading something you did not want to upload and when you are satisfied in that respect; click on the Insert Inline button and those files will be in your post!


Regards,
SamtheSquirrel

Thank you so much Sam I will try and get to it tomorrow Wednesday will be my Charlotte's 1 year anniversary of her passing. Dealing with the loss of Bella is hard enough and now I'm grieving the love of my life my Charlotte as well. But I'd love to post pictures of both Charlotte and Bella.
Thank you

[SamtheSquirrel2018]

Thank you so much Sam I will try and get to it tomorrow Wednesday will be my Charlotte's 1 year anniversary of her passing. Dealing with the loss of Bella is hard enough and now I'm grieving the love of my life my Charlotte as well. But I'd love to post pictures of both Charlotte and Bella.
Thank you

I wish you Peace, Charley!
We will be looking forward to your posting of Charlotte's and Bella's photos!
Regards,
SamtheSquirrel

[Charley]

Hello Samthesquirrel I finally figured out how to post pics. Here are some pictures of my Precious Charlotte who passed away on July 26, 2022.
And pictures of my Baby Bella who passed away on June 12, 2023 after only living a short 76 days. I miss both of my little girls with such intense passion! I still cry almost everyday for them. Although I had Charlotte for 9 years and I loved her with all of my heart, once I got Bella the pain started to go away only to have to relive it all over again 48 days later. I think I miss Bella so much more because I blame myself for her death and because her life was cut so short because of me.
The first few pictures are of Charlotte and the others are Bella

[Charley Chuckles]

Both beautiful babies 💖💖
I know the feeling of the loss and guilt as most of us do here. It's so easy to blame ourselves and to keep replaying it over and over in our minds thinking if I only did this if I only did that🙄 it's crippling 😕
Forgiving ourself is always harder then forgiving someone else :grouphug
Just know your babies loved you and don't want you to be sad forever however they will be your angels forever, they knew how much you cared💓💓

God bless them God bless you 🙏🙏🙏

[SamtheSquirrel2018]

Thank you Charley for posting the photos of your beautiful Squirrels! I am so sorry for your loss and for your pain! Please forgive yourself, Charley! You deserve your own forgiveness! Charley Chuckles said it so well in her post! I do wish the very best for you, Charley and most of all, I wish you Peace! Please stay in touch on TSB. Hopefully, another Squirrel may enter your life!
Regards,
SamtheSquirrel

[Charley]

To CharleyChuckles and Samthesquirrel thank you for your kind words. It's been so hard getting thru my loss especially since another orphan squirrel was brought to me last week. It's a male and it's so different than my Bella he is constantly escaping, has bit me twice and is not friendly at all. It seems like he is just desperate to be free but he's still on formula so I know if I release him it will be his demise. I was unsure whether he was a squirrel at all because he is so different. But as I posted earlier maybe it's because he was being hunted by some cats when my friend rescued him. My previous two girls were tame from the start I don't know if he will become tame as time goes by. I will post some pictures. Also he doesn't seem to be gaining any weight

[Chirps]

Hi, Charley!
Thanks for posting the pics of your beautiful girls! StS and CC have said it best, but after following this thread I must add to what they said. We ALL have guilt for something. We are plagued by the wish for a do over that we can't have. I can only say that it gets easier with time. Of course it never goes away, but it is more bearable.

Maybe this little guy was sent by Bella and Charlotte to give you a challenge to occupy your mind so you don't dwell too much on your grief and pain.

Good luck! Looking forward to pics.

[Charley]

This is Scooter

[Charley]

Hi, Charley!
Thanks for posting the pics of your beautiful girls! StS and CC have said it best, but after following this thread I must add to what they said. We ALL have guilt for something. We are plagued by the wish for a do over that we can't have. I can only say that it gets easier with time. Of course it never goes away, but it is more bearable.

Maybe this little guy was sent by Bella and Charlotte to give you a challenge to occupy your mind so you don't dwell too much on your grief and pain.

Good luck! Looking forward to pics.

Thank you so much Chirps